Labels

Thinking of things beyond controlled human perceptions,
They automatically label me "crazy".

The minute people try to break free from everything;
authority, the idiot BOX contraptions,
and the incomplete misguided education,
we're no longer seen as a part of society.
A "deviant" is what they labeled me.

Forever striving for betterment and peace,
leads me to believe,
with proper time and dedication,
my dream will become mere reality.
They tell me I'm "living in a land of make believes."

Conceptualizing ideas that can't be understood in measurable 2D or 3D,
my ideology knows no boundaries.
They'd say "Idk, he seems lost and confused ?"
Well...Maybe.

Subtly refusing to simply sit back and accept what I'm told,
or be forced into believing all that I see,
questioning all of what was written,
blatantly disregarding authority.
Choosing to exercise my human capabilities,
using my brain for its intended purpose...
Thinking, has led me to create my own sense of realities.
Oh don't worry,
I'm prepared to be labeled as "delusional" within this structured society.

Nas once spoke the words "If I ruled the world,"
We're all kings and queens, rulers of our own worlds.
Although interconnected,
we're separate entities with our own frame of minds.
Suffering from "schizophrenia" is what they'll label me with this time.

Interpersonal communication allowed us to see into one another's worlds,
an art form being hurled to the side,
making way for social networking and media genocide.
"Blasphemy, you will not bash our technology with such deceitful lies !!!"

Once upon a time, your labels held me hostage.
Unwilling and unable to be released,
from your modern day slave mentality,
instilled in me as a young child.

Taught that SUCCESS LIES in being a doctor, lawyer, teacher, fireman etc
What if I envisioned something else,
who are you to place a value on all of societal needs,
through your SUCCESSFUL LIES?

Taught all of the schisms and cruelties of the world through your miseducation,
but maybe its time for some deep self reflection.
Ask yourself this question,
" What have I done any different ?"
America, the land of the free,
but to me all land is free,
and its my mind and mentality,
that I'll emancipate eventually,
from your labels of limited beliefs.

In the words of Lauren Hill, "Be free, be who YOU are suppose to be."
Why not live with joy, bliss, happiness,
instead of constant pain and misery ?

Perfect Harmony

You are the right to my wrong,
The confident step left to my insecure step right,
The sunlight on my cloudy day,
Or my unbearable nights.
You make everything better with astonishing love nothing lesser.
How could I go one day with out my perfect harmony?

You are the smile to my frown,
The cheers to my downs,
You’re the positive energy despite the negativity that constantly surrounds.
Quite simply,
You balance out the highs and lows in my life.
For my sanity's sake...
Why should I go on with out my perfect harmony?

You're my doctor when I’m sick,
Psychiatrist when my mental is off wit,
Warmer of my heart, merely, each time we kiss.
With basic tender love n care,
You add ease to my uneasy spirit.
I'm in need of…you...my perfect harmony.

Rebirth: Year in review, New Year continued success

And another year has passed. 2009, I dub “The Rebirth.” You may ask why? Well there are several reasons, but simply put as the title insinuates, I feel as if I, Ryan, was reborn. I’m in the best mind state I’ve been in recent years. My positivity has grown immensely in all aspects of life. I’m thankful for everything I have and feel as if my life has been put in perspective. I'm also thankful for my losses for they have made me stronger. Especially thankful for all the dead weight that was eliminated from my life this yr through whatever circumstances. I’m grateful for new found acquaintances and friendships that more illustrate me as a person, and what I expect in life through those around me. I have definitely learned that true happiness comes from not trying to please those around you but by doing what will be best for self. In 2009, I lost my aunt that was like my 2nd mother and I know she'll continue to guide me, and I lost my grandfather also. But in this loss I was able to reestablish bonds with my family back home, Jamaica that is, that I hadn’t seen in years including my brother(yes I have a half brother) that I had been curious to know how he's been living the pass about 8 yrs. The year 2009 taught me that stressing the little things in life will only affect one's self.

Something I’ve heard a good deal in 2009 is that I’ve changed. Whoever has told me that, you know what, you’re absolutely right. I have changed, I’ve grown as a person, mentally and spiritually (obviously not vertically lol) and will continue to adapt. Twenty-one yr old Ryan in 2010 shouldn’t be acting like 18-19 yr old Ryan because that wouldn’t be a sign of progress. So for 2010 all I want is to continue my growth and chase my goals of success. Honestly, if you're negative in energy or dont have a similar outlook on life, I'll probably continue to distance myself from you in 2010, because that doesn't symbolize who I'm trying to grow to be. Yes I’m a work in progress that’s not complete, but I’d say I’m moving in the right direction.

Thanksgiving

Its been a little while since I've done this...its been a pretty busy semester to say the least. But Thanksgiving has brought me back to share some thoughts. Thanksgiving, another one of these skewed "holidays" we celebrate without really knowing its true meaning. I guess I'll start off though, by stating all I'm thankful for before going on my little spiel about Thanksgiving. I'm grateful for waking up another day 1st and foremost, because as we all know, thats not promised. I'm thankful for my parents who offer support and keep me as grounded as they can at this age and the values in which they instilled in me as a child. I'm thankful for my family, although not as tight knit as others, we all understand why its not that way and when we are together its usually good times. I'm thankful for all my true friends and acquaintances who hold me down no matter what and who I continue to make memories with. I've gone 20 yrs(21 in a week) and many of the fun moments in my life have been shared with you all. I'm thankful for all the experiences that life has offered me so far because they have helped me grow into the person I am today and will continue to help me be who I am to be eventually.
But, Thanksgiving, a day we celebrate without knowing its true context. First and foremost, in reality thanks should be given on a day to day basis not just on one day that capitalist decide to call Thanksgiving. Furthermore, Thanksgiving, the day the Pilgrims came and stole the land of the indigenous while slaughtering them is what we celebrate. Of course growing up we learn the Pilgrims and Chris Columbus were great people who did great things, but as we learn real history, we see how much they f'ed up the world as it once was. While you celebrate Thanksgiving each year, think about how many indigenous lives had to pay for this "holiday. This capitalist society in which we leave found another day to sell us, where we all go out and spend hell of money...Black Friday.
While yes the holiday has positive meanings to it in todays world, its very important to remember the foundation and basis on which you celebrate it on.

Trip

Last night I went on an intense journey, where I felt I answered all the questions I have about life. Anything I once questioned seemed to instantaneously be answered. It was as if my brain's capabilities had been fully unlocked and I was able to figure out the key to life, and more importantly the key to my life. The journey began at one end of a dark, seemingly long trail where I mixed with nature and everything that Earth had to offer. It was like a surreal experience, a journey where one's mind was cleared. Thinking wasn't a necessity, but more over realization was. In order to complete the journey one had to realize the environment around and continue forward on the journey, minimizing anxiety. It felt as if I had become one with the earth. All sounds became distinct and clear. Clutter disappeared. I saw the world from a different eye, the third eye, the enhanced eye. As I got closer and closer to the light, reality set in, and I realized this euphoric state must come to an end and reality must set in again. That seemingly hidden trail must be revisited whenever I need to answer life's questions again.

Outlook

As I sit here staring the near end of august in the eye, I'm left to ask one question...where did summer o9 go !? I mean don't get me wrong, it was a lengthy summer and although I didn't have a job it had its eventful moments. Nevertheless, like most endings, the end to summer o9 came sudden and unexpected. I must admit I am a little anxious to see what fall o9-spring10 at SUNY NP has in store for me as I look forward to closing that chapter in life and embarking on something new and even more remarkable. As the time comes when graduation and I are face to face, I wonder if I’ll still feel the same way or if I'll begin to miss the memories that SUNY NP has brought to my life. This year should be real interesting since it'll be my first yr off campus,( u can find me in the lavender house on the corner, yes I said lavender...I know I know :-\ ). The biggest thing I won't miss is dealing with UPD who had a hit out against me this past year. With that said, I’m going to continue my positive outlook on life, take everything easy, and hope for the best.

Old Woman Slammed By Police

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pRJpyIxNlA

Its ridiculous and upsetting that the police get to do whatever they feel because there is no real system of checks and balances with them. How is it justified to slam an 80+ yr old lady and crack her head open. Was she really that much of a danger to society ? In my opinion, its a resounding no.