Labels

Thinking of things beyond controlled human perceptions,
They automatically label me "crazy".

The minute people try to break free from everything;
authority, the idiot BOX contraptions,
and the incomplete misguided education,
we're no longer seen as a part of society.
A "deviant" is what they labeled me.

Forever striving for betterment and peace,
leads me to believe,
with proper time and dedication,
my dream will become mere reality.
They tell me I'm "living in a land of make believes."

Conceptualizing ideas that can't be understood in measurable 2D or 3D,
my ideology knows no boundaries.
They'd say "Idk, he seems lost and confused ?"
Well...Maybe.

Subtly refusing to simply sit back and accept what I'm told,
or be forced into believing all that I see,
questioning all of what was written,
blatantly disregarding authority.
Choosing to exercise my human capabilities,
using my brain for its intended purpose...
Thinking, has led me to create my own sense of realities.
Oh don't worry,
I'm prepared to be labeled as "delusional" within this structured society.

Nas once spoke the words "If I ruled the world,"
We're all kings and queens, rulers of our own worlds.
Although interconnected,
we're separate entities with our own frame of minds.
Suffering from "schizophrenia" is what they'll label me with this time.

Interpersonal communication allowed us to see into one another's worlds,
an art form being hurled to the side,
making way for social networking and media genocide.
"Blasphemy, you will not bash our technology with such deceitful lies !!!"

Once upon a time, your labels held me hostage.
Unwilling and unable to be released,
from your modern day slave mentality,
instilled in me as a young child.

Taught that SUCCESS LIES in being a doctor, lawyer, teacher, fireman etc
What if I envisioned something else,
who are you to place a value on all of societal needs,
through your SUCCESSFUL LIES?

Taught all of the schisms and cruelties of the world through your miseducation,
but maybe its time for some deep self reflection.
Ask yourself this question,
" What have I done any different ?"
America, the land of the free,
but to me all land is free,
and its my mind and mentality,
that I'll emancipate eventually,
from your labels of limited beliefs.

In the words of Lauren Hill, "Be free, be who YOU are suppose to be."
Why not live with joy, bliss, happiness,
instead of constant pain and misery ?

Perfect Harmony

You are the right to my wrong,
The confident step left to my insecure step right,
The sunlight on my cloudy day,
Or my unbearable nights.
You make everything better with astonishing love nothing lesser.
How could I go one day with out my perfect harmony?

You are the smile to my frown,
The cheers to my downs,
You’re the positive energy despite the negativity that constantly surrounds.
Quite simply,
You balance out the highs and lows in my life.
For my sanity's sake...
Why should I go on with out my perfect harmony?

You're my doctor when I’m sick,
Psychiatrist when my mental is off wit,
Warmer of my heart, merely, each time we kiss.
With basic tender love n care,
You add ease to my uneasy spirit.
I'm in need of…you...my perfect harmony.

Rebirth: Year in review, New Year continued success

And another year has passed. 2009, I dub “The Rebirth.” You may ask why? Well there are several reasons, but simply put as the title insinuates, I feel as if I, Ryan, was reborn. I’m in the best mind state I’ve been in recent years. My positivity has grown immensely in all aspects of life. I’m thankful for everything I have and feel as if my life has been put in perspective. I'm also thankful for my losses for they have made me stronger. Especially thankful for all the dead weight that was eliminated from my life this yr through whatever circumstances. I’m grateful for new found acquaintances and friendships that more illustrate me as a person, and what I expect in life through those around me. I have definitely learned that true happiness comes from not trying to please those around you but by doing what will be best for self. In 2009, I lost my aunt that was like my 2nd mother and I know she'll continue to guide me, and I lost my grandfather also. But in this loss I was able to reestablish bonds with my family back home, Jamaica that is, that I hadn’t seen in years including my brother(yes I have a half brother) that I had been curious to know how he's been living the pass about 8 yrs. The year 2009 taught me that stressing the little things in life will only affect one's self.

Something I’ve heard a good deal in 2009 is that I’ve changed. Whoever has told me that, you know what, you’re absolutely right. I have changed, I’ve grown as a person, mentally and spiritually (obviously not vertically lol) and will continue to adapt. Twenty-one yr old Ryan in 2010 shouldn’t be acting like 18-19 yr old Ryan because that wouldn’t be a sign of progress. So for 2010 all I want is to continue my growth and chase my goals of success. Honestly, if you're negative in energy or dont have a similar outlook on life, I'll probably continue to distance myself from you in 2010, because that doesn't symbolize who I'm trying to grow to be. Yes I’m a work in progress that’s not complete, but I’d say I’m moving in the right direction.